Healing me Slowly.

can anything written somewhere in the past hurt you still

make you feel the pain like a fresh wound,

maybe it can if it was the truth,

and so i read it till today,

and everyday,

to remind myself of the truth.

read it till the pain goes away.

till all i feel after it is just numbness.

The first time in saw it all i felt was anger,

and outrage,

but now all that is gone,

its just pain.

there are many more i need courage to read .
I guess ill read it till,
the pain i feel is taken over by 
calmness & peace. 
a understanding that what has happened
has taught me something,
which i'll be able to learn only if
i can let the pain go.