as i sit in the edge of my bed,

pondering about my life,

i feel like i am sitting at the edge of my existence,

and as i look down i can see the depth of my

being,

at once it seems dark and deep,

fool of vicious being,

and as i see for longer,

i see there is nothings

nothing that i don't want or

 nothing that i can't change.

the

darkness i see is

my creation.

so will be the light 

that guides me. 

how long do i wait,

how long will you take to come,

everyone is asking about you,

when am i going to end the wait

but dear i know

when you come,

i'll have a hand to hold,

in times of difficulty and then i'll know we'll get through everything,

anything together,

when you come,

i'll have a hug,

even before the first tear drops, 

and i'll know that those tears will never fall,

when you come,

i'll have the kiss,

that makes my heart smile,

that makes my heart connect to yours.

So till then,

i'll wait for you right here,

patiently and lovingly

to give you my everything

to give you

all that i have. 

Don't let worries cloud your eyes,

don't let it be the only thing you see in life,

cause they are not 

the end of life,

but the reason you become stronger in life

so if you have problems,

worries

anything that make life seem not worth while,

remember once you tackle it well,

you'll see beyond it a colorful life,

maybe cause not- worries are no longer their,

but in your heart you'll know  'i'll handle it all well.'

So next time there are problem,

don't sit and think 

'why me Lord'

but sit and think

how do i get rid of this discord.

does it make any sense to ,

when i say i love you

but

i can't be with you.

do you feel my love

when i say i hate you...

when i say i don't want to 

see your face again.

a face that has filled my world

my heart 

and my mind,

how do i not see you again

when every where i see

is only you.

do you understand ,

when i say

i love you ,

that my heart crushes,

love you so much

that i get suffocated.

but i rather die suffocating in your love,

than live without it