I had long feared of getting hurt,

feared someone would break the trust,

break the faith i had ,

the fear so full in me 

that i pushed everyone away..

pushed everyone to a distance where no ones know the real me

no would know my truth,

my lies, 

...my trembling 

or my fear.

even though i laugh with them

they don't know what my eyes says,

they never know when i have lost the battle

and tear escapes my eyes.

The secret that they see i hide

are just fear i don't show.