It hurts me to hurt you,

but 

the pleasure is so more than the pain..

Healing me Slowly.

can anything written somewhere in the past hurt you still

make you feel the pain like a fresh wound,

maybe it can if it was the truth,

and so i read it till today,

and everyday,

to remind myself of the truth.

read it till the pain goes away.

till all i feel after it is just numbness.

The first time in saw it all i felt was anger,

and outrage,

but now all that is gone,

its just pain.

there are many more i need courage to read .
I guess ill read it till,
the pain i feel is taken over by 
calmness & peace. 
a understanding that what has happened
has taught me something,
which i'll be able to learn only if
i can let the pain go. 

Maybes : Scribbling from the past.

Maybe it wasn't meant to be

or

maybe this is where our journey ... our story has to end,

its not important to have a happy ending to everything,

Maybe this is among the ones which keeps everyone guessing,

 whats going to happen next,

I wanted to talk to him so badly yesterday,

and

I could not 

Maybe our story will fade away just like this slowly

and with pleasant memories.

I might not have the beautiful eyes your looking for,
or the slender legs your searching,

I might not have the curves
or the infectious smile that melts your heart,

I might not be beautiful,
or pretty

I might not be the perfect someone you want
But i'm still o.k with it
cause i know i love ME .

I Still want to be the same person for you,
the same girl you had left years ago,

I want to be naive...
'cause wisdom I have realized causes only more pain....
...naive like before.

I want my life to be back to
black and white and shades of grey,
'cause colour I have realized
don't make me happy.

The Girl you knew ,
knew to be happy truly even if life seemed grim,
grim maybe was for her,
but she knew how to
find happiness....
.....find that smile,that would make things all right.


Experience have had many,
& 
I did learn alot,
but will knowledge help me bring back the moments that are gone.
.....

Cheap Tricks:Strings!

Things you'll need: 

# Thread

&

# This hair Comb

# Pearls

( you can use anything else)

# Random beads

These are beads from broken bracelet

necklace,

broken anything basically

I have just tied the thread to the pin .

Simple basic knot and as you see the other end has a needle

for easy handling! 

Now the FUN begins,

just keep adding any thing you want on your strings,

beads, pearls, sequence ....

anything!

just make sure it doesn't get very heavy.

Here is my First Sting! 

Apart from beads and all

knot details also work well,

!

As you see i have incorporated and bright orange

along the way!!!  

This is the complete piece!

~You can add more stings.

~Keep it simple, sans anything!

or 

~Extremely colorful!

Illustration Project #1

My first illustration of the project !

I have been following .zarnasrunway for quite some time now!

and since the day 1 i wanted to illustrate her.

her style is different 

( i know everyone thinks 'so is others' )

to be specific 

~ i liked her love for locally things,

even though her style is international i tell you! 

~ love for  7 " platform

i have used soft pastel and black sketch pen.

am not sure how far i have justified her through this illustration.

Take a look at the actual post here !